BellaFeierabend
Basics
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Location:
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I am looking for:Man
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Zip Code:55401
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Age:62
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Height:5 ft. 4 in.
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Body:Athletic
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Ethnicity:White
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Education:Some College
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Job:Hospitality Tourism
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Has Kids:No
ABOUT
Recently single. Not ready for anything serious at this time other than casual sex. I would like to make new friends. When I was a kid, I thought I was a happy normal boy. However, I had natural female tendencies and a high voice which disgusted my father. At first, I did not know why my father was always angry and disgusted with me. I would wonder, "What did I do now?" He began a campaign of shaming me into believing how a boy should behave and sound. He would constantly tell me to lower my voice. He would look at me with disgust and say, "Only girls do that!" He would threaten to make me wear dresses and disgustedly asked, "Would you like that?" Ashamed and afraid, I knew I should say no, but I actually wanted to say yes because it sounded fun to me. I went from a worry-free happy kid to always unhappy and feeling bad and ashamed of myself. I always worried if I did not sound and act as a boy. I repressed my female tendencies and began to live in absolute denial. I wondered why I so strongly wanted to deny how strangely fascinated and so afraid of anything transsexual/transgender. I would look at other men and wonder why I did not feel as other men looked to feel. Later in my adult life my female tendencies were realized, and I was horrified to admit that I was transgender. Eventually, I realized why I did not think I felt as men looked to feel like and why I was in such deep denial of how I was strangely fascinated with shemales. I suddenly casually realized I identify and feel as a shemale. I grew to accept that I am transgender decided to allow myself to be transgender. If had courage not to be intimidated by my father or if my father had decided to educate himself and put aside his personal feelings as perhaps a real father would because a real father would want me to feel loved instead of disgusting, perhaps my life would have taken a different journey and I would look as I feel like a real woman today.
What I am looking for
I'm very much attracted to hot manly men. I very much want to please a hot rugged manly man. Dominate and mold me.
